1: What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before?
I started working out. I started working very hard on my problems, and being able to imagine a future without borderline. I started a healthy and adult relationship, with no yelling, no name calling, no abuse in any form, nothing other than happiness and working together as a team. And being nice to my dad, and not giving him shit for being mean sometimes but just letting it go. Letting go of the past is a good one. I've done that several times. That's a good one!
2: Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't believe in new year's resolutions. I set goals for myself regardless of the day or month or year.
3: Did anyone close to you give birth?
No, but a lot of people i know did.
4: Did anyone close to you die?
Yes.. I lost a very very dear friend from boarding school. He was my best friend back then, but unfortunately we didn't have much contact after. I know everyone says 'oh he was my best friend' when someone dies, but in all seriousness, he was. He was Loop's roommate back then, so they were very close too. He didn't have contact to anybody after school ended, because he lost his phone and lost all the numbers as far as i remember, and he didn't have facebook. Loop found out he had just made a profile, and the same day we invited him over! And... He was just.. you know.. changed.. He was depressed. Hallucinating. Addicted. Suicidal. Violent. not to us though.
He committed suicide. just like i knew he would..
5: What countries did you visit?
France & Sweden
6:What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?
I don't really know. I came so far in '15, and i would just like that to continue.
7: What dates from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
January 24. - My first date with Loop at the cinema.
February. 11. - The day we became "official".
March. 9. - We lost Jannick.
March. 9. - I reconnected with Sylvester.
April. 9. - Loop and i went to france.
April. 28. Loop and i moved to Ballerup.
May. 6. - Savanna and i started talking again.
June. Whatever. - My hormones started fucking my life up and i got acne and took on weight and i started sweating like a motherfucker, i had motion sickness on an insane level constantly, (2 stops with the s-train and i could throw up. seriously) and every other delightful side effect under the fucking sun, from puberty.
That's all i can remember right now..
I know many of these are Loop related, but honestly, ALL of 2015 i spent on him. All year i spent almost every day with him, i thought about him every single day, and i used all my energy, sometimes very very painful energy, on him. He was the best, and most special thing that happened to me, all year, and in all my life. No matter what will ever happen, nothing has ever made me so happy and comfortable and relaxed as him. He is the most special and memorable thing i have ever known.
8: What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting the amazing treatment i am in, and watching how far i've come already!
Being able to let go of the past, and not hang on to small bullshit. Being a good girlfriend for once, and finally being able to act like the adult i feel i am. But like, not in an old way though.. Just like, you know.. mature.
9: What was your biggest failure?
Urgh..I don't even know man, i hate remembering stuff like this, so i'd rather leave this one blank. I like to move on, (cause now i can) learn from it, and do everything i can to prevent it from happening again. I know i make a lot of fuckups, but you know.. Whatever.
10: Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing except the borderline-bipolar that has always been there, and my hormones fucking me over. But i don't really get sick. I just don't roll like that.
11: What was the best thing you bought?
MY BACKPACK FROM FRANCE!! :D i seriously believe that if my house was lit on fire right now, that bag would be the first thing i would rescue.
12:Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My own actually.. I've been working so hard on myself and i already get a lot of credit because people around me really notice the chance. It's amazing!
13: Whose behaviour made you appalled?
Sylvester's.. Pff. What a big bag of disappointment he was. Excuse my language.
14: Where did most of your money go?
Food....
15: What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Meeting Loop and getting to travel to France with him. Moving in with him, and when we were planning to get a dog.
16: What song will always remind you of 2015?
John Mayer - Gravity
17: Compared to this time last year, are you:
(a) happier or sadder? Happier. Much much happier!
(b) thinner or fatter? Wouldn't say fatter, but i put on 3 kilos that hasn't disappeared since, so i think they are here to stay :)
(c) richer or poorer? Poorer!!!!!
18: What do you wish you’d done more of?
Traveling
19: What do you wish you’d done less of?
Being incredibly sad and broken and feeling useless and worthless and stupid.. But it is what it is, and i just hope it'll never happen again like that.. But my illness really makes that an impossible task right now, but i'm working hard, and hopefully in the future it will disappear and turn into having these feelings the same amount that normal people have.
20: How did you spend Christmas?
I got out of going to Egypt with my mom, thank god, so i went with the tradition, and went to Sweden with the other half of my family. Don't get me wrong, it's not like i wouldn't go because it was with my mom. But i refuse to get on an airplane these days, and i would NOT enjoy going to the middle east, sorrynotsorry.. I've always been terrified with flying, but this shit is too much. I can't do it anymore more, and all this terrorism just scare me shitless.. I know all this stuff with 'it's not only brown people that terrorise, you are ignorant bla bla bla' i know okay. But i don't want to go there. I don't want to die, surprising myself by saying this, but i really don't.
21: Did you fall in love in 2015?
I don't even have to answer that, are you kidding? I would not stop talking if i started.
22: What was your favourite TV program?
BoJack Horseman!!<33333 I can't WAIT 'till the new episodes hit in 2016!
23: Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
You know, it takes a lot for me to hate someone, and i've never really been a fan of it like so many others, but there are a few people i wouldn't mind seeing dead. The other day, by coincidence, i saw that one of them was tagged on a recent picture on facebook, and i was, by reflex, loudly saying to myself 'oh she's not dead yet?.. damn.' And i was being so serious. I would dance and spit on her grave. I would dig her up, beat her up and lit her on fire.
Yeah.. This bitch did me so wrong..
24: What was the best book you read?
I don't read.
25: What was your greatest musical discovery?
Uhhhhhh! Issch! Loop listens to so much great music, so i've listened to all his about a gezellian times and i still love it! But if i have to boil it down to one, i think it'll be Civilian with Wye Oak.
26: What did you want and get?
Loop.
27: What did you want and not get?
A new tattoo..
28: What was your favourite film of this year?
Inside out!!!
29: What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Being with Loop.. I know i know i know guys, okay? I'm cheezy and in love like fuck and i disgust even myself. But i don't really care to be honest..
30: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015?
The same as always.
31: What kept you sane?
Medication...
32: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Daniel Radcliffe
33: What political issue stirred you the most?
All this immigrants bullshit.. This country is picking up where Hitler left off and it's fucking scaring the shit out of me.
34: Who did you miss?
Jannick..
35: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015.
Don't assume. Don't expect.
36: Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
'If I slur a bit
It's just because I'm confused
Don't think much of it
My days belong to you
If you're kind, my nights can too
It's just a habit'